Things To Work On

Hi! This is my first blog post :) I'm currently listening to the Breakthrough album by Colbie Caillat. She always calms me down and makes me happy with her joyful melodies and pretty voice. 

I started this blog for a few reasons - my friend Michelle has one, so my other friend Sierra and I decided to make our own too. I have a lot of thoughts and ideas in my head that I'd love to put out there. Mostly, I think I'll use this blog to help me find my peace, both with life and with myself. I love life and find the truest joy in the small things, but I think I need to learn how to better accept circumstances that I have no control over, and to find the good in the bad. In addition, I want to learn more about myself in order to better understand everything around me. I want to be content with who I am and who I am not. 

I decided to start things off with some of my goals for the upcoming year. While I try to work on myself year-round, I think New Years is a great time to evaluate yourself and find some new ways to improve. And personally, I'm always very motivated after a break filled with holidays and relaxation. 

One of my resolutions is to journal more - I'm very sporadic with diaries and so I want to become more consistent, not only to improve my writing but because I think it is very beneficial to self-awareness. I think this blog will help with that! 

Another resolution is to pay more attention to my physical health. It is definitely something I prefer to overlook, because I don't want to stop eating my favorite foods and I always end up despising exercising. Despite my reluctance, I've been forced to accept the fact that I will never be mentally healthy if I am not physically healthy. For one thing, I do care about my body, and I am not as happy when I'm not satisfied with my appearance or my strength. Exercising and eating healthy keeps you looking good, but it also keeps you feeling good. I know that jogging (ugh I hate it so much) helps when stressed or tense, so I want to keep that up this year if it isn't too cold outside. 

My last major resolution is to work on being better in social situations. I did get out of my comfort zone this last semester, but unfortunately that was more with boys than with people in general. I didn't end up with any friends in Colorado besides my boyfriend (I had a couple during the semester, but they didn't last), and I want to change that. I'm going to try to be more involved with things, which is hard when in community college, but nothing will ever come my way if I don't put myself out there. Things to improve are my conversation skills and my shyness. I've never been as good with having friends, but I'm tired of feeling sorry for myself and never working to improve that! I'll never reach my full potential if I continue to feel insecure and unaccepted around my peers. And to be honest, it gets lonely watching other people with their best friends and groups. Time to confront this negative feeling! 

"Know Thyself. It's good advice. Know yourself. You are worth knowing. Examine your life. The unexamined life is not worth living... Life the best life you can, and become the best self you can." - Jo Walton, The Just City